The Quarantine Diet

So here we are. I am one of the privileged ones, working from home all day feeling safe and feeling healthy. I feel lucky and grateful but each day still has to be taken one moment at a time. In the last few weeks, I have found that whenever I begin to panic, or sink into uncomfortable sadness, it’s usually because I’ve spent too much time online digesting other people’s experiences/opinions (hard not to do these days since every thing involves a screen it seems) or have given myself too much (or too little) structure.

For many years I wrote down pretty much everything I ate and everything I did, to help me get through my eating disorder, which was really a manifestation of my depression, anxiety, and need to control. Even though I haven’t kept track of my diet and schedule for a long time, I’m still a rather regimented person whenever the shit hits the fan.

When I think about it, I’m pretty much doing the same thing every single day, and it’s bringing me immense comfort. Reliability, c…